True Love

Proverbs 16:9
"A man's heart deviseth his way, but the Lord directeth his steps."

This scripture continues to ring true in every sense. God is indeed a faithful and awesome God. His promises stand true, and He is indeed in control of e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g...regardless of what the world wants us to believe..or what our emotions lead us to believe.

It's been quite a week since the Alpha Saturday last weekend. The idea was for the attendees to be filled with the Holy Spirit. However, God has shown me in a big way that we as facilitators are allowed to receive as well...and boy, has He ever given... :)

Have just been feeling such an increased presence of Him in my life this week. Been listening to the new Hillsong United cd's the whole week in the car, and even though I know most of the songs by heart, I still can't seem to get enough. I've never been a great reader, and scripture has never been able to 'stick to me', so to speak. But through the music, I am experiencing an unquenchable thirst for His presence and His Spirit. I also realised with a bang that I don't merely love Him anymore...I am for the first time really IN LOVE with Jesus. And for someone who's been single for most of her life...what a Man to fall in Love with, huh...? :)

Not even when I penned "I met a man...", did I feel His love so intensely in my life, nor did I feel it in return for Him as much...and I thought it was great then... :) There's an excitement in my Spirit and heart like never before, complete with the occasional butterfly or two flapping by. To be honest, I had actually forgotten what it's like to be truly in Love with someone. In the words from one of my favourite movies, "I've always quite liked You...truth is I never expected it to thunderbolt..."

Thunderboltcity. That's what I'm feeling at this moment. Probably sounds sad and cliched, but I don't care...anymore. He is my One True Love. He loved me before I was even born. To Him I am beautiful in every way. And to me He is my everything. I believe that He has started to speak to me about someone - a human being ;) - that He is preparing for me and preparing me for. But even that hasn't been able to draw me away from Him or wanting to be in His presence. The bumper sticker on my Facebook profile really rings true at this point in my life: "A woman's heart should be so lost in God that a man needs to seek Him in order to find Her"... All I can say to whoever it is God has in mind for me, is:
It won't be easy, but when you find me, I know that you'll also really have found Him :)

Thank you Jesus for truly being the Lover of my soul. Thank you for drawing me nearer to You in every way, and letting me closer and closer to Your heart for me. I want to serve you all my days, and with that I am and with all that I am not (yet).
I love you Jesus. You are my true First Love.
Amen.